Makes me that much stronger

So, about a month ago I went to my gyno to have my womanly check up and get told that I have some irregularities and that I have contracted HPV. Now instead of feeling really like sad instead I get super pissed off because I paid to get the Guardasil shot and it's super expensive and I got the damn disease anyway! But I decide it's ok and everything's fine and ask my doc what to do. She tells me that we need to do a special procedure involving opening me wide and shovint a microscope up my cough cough and taking samples to see how far along the disease is. After this horrible experience I have to wait and wait and wait until I get my test results back. Cervical cancer. The big C. There is not much news after that that compares to how it feels to be told you have the number one killer in America. Cancer. I'm going to the doc on Wed and having the cancerous cells frozen and then I guess we'll see what happens. But I'm super scared. I feel really alone on this. Luckilly I have Justin who loves me and says he'll be right here holding my hand through the whole thing. It's terrifying and weird and awful but I think I'll be alright. Justin and I always wanted to adopt anyway. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger and all that jazz. I'm going to make it through this. I don't care how much it takes but I'll make it through somehow.