Friday, January 16, 2009

Scared

I'm scared all of the time.
I'm scared of my cancer.
I'm scared the proceedure didn't work.
I'm scared I will never have children.
I'm scared to never be a mom.
I'm scared of being alone.
I'm scared of my mind.
I'm scared of never getting my friends back.
I'm scared Justin will never get better.
I'm scared to make the wrong decision.
I'm scared my friends will.
I'm scared of going through loss.
I'm scared I'm not strong.
I'm scared of growing weak.
I'm scared of life.
I feel like I'm jumping out off a cliff into the air. The hardest part is letting go.

2 comments:

Tylene said...

You should come see me in cedar. Get out of that part of town and just meet some new people. It would be nice to spend some time with you. Although cedar isn't that much fun, you'll meet a lot of fun people.

Jennifer said...

I'd really like to.