Step 1: Honesty

Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome you addictions and that your life has become unmanageable.

I fully admit this. My addictions has placed me into debt, I've lost my job, my friends, my hobbies, and some of my mind. I don't have a lot of choices when it comes to the future but this is one of them. To keep going. In keeping with the steps I have become honest about my addiction to myself and to those around me. I often feel encompassed or trapped in situations or in life in general. Being alone and single with friends. No one to talk to before I go to bed at night. Loneliness being a huge factor in why I began in the first place.
Placing trust in the Lord is a big issue for me, I haven't always in the past and have failed. I know the only path to suceed is by faith. But I don't have a lot of faith. I literally watched someone die from this disease and it kinda placed a huge dent into my faith.