I'm A Christian

I'M A CHRISTIAN
By Maya Angelou
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin."
I'm whispering "I was lost,"
Now I'm found and forgiven.
When I say...
"I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need CHRIST to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
and need HIS strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
and need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
but, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain,
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
who received God's good grace, somehow

.Author ~Maya Angelou~

The adventures of Jen and Kayla and fog

So once upon a time Jen and Kayla got kinda bored one Friday night and needed to get more wedding stuff. So we go on a great and marvelous adventure to pick up her arch and find some frosted glass candle holders. Which we did and they are super cute! We thence travel to her house to eat some cereal and look at her wedding dress. After fawning over her beautiful dress Kayla started to miss Greg a lot so we decided to surprise him at his boy scout sleep away camp thingy. We knew where it was but not exactly how to get there so we programmed it into my beautiful iPhone and got directions. Then the fog hit. It was like pea soup crazy slasher movie fog. You could hardly see in front of you. Well we get going and the phone tells us to take an exit which we do and it leads to THE CREEPIEST NEIGHBORHOOD IN HOLIDAY!!!!!! We were frightened for our lives and decided to get back on the freeway and get out of there! Well the fog was so thick I couldn't read the sign saying which way the freeway was going and got us lost going the wrong way on the freeway heading back to the creepy neighborhood! To add to the horrible spookiness my gas light turns on. So I'm thinking great we're going to get stuck with no gas in the fog in horrorville. Luckily we got right on track on the right freeway exit where the fog suddenly stops. It was like a wall. It just stopped and I looked at Kayla and she looked at me and we got super freaked out! But we got to the camp to surprise Greg whose face was absolutely priceless and was super surprised. It made me really happy to see him and Kayla together and it made me miss my Justin all the more. But everything was well and we made it back home safely. No Kiwolves attacked. FYI the picture above is what our adventure in the fog would have been.... it's actually a cardboard cut out for the movie Friday the 13th that we took pictures with.....

Scared

I'm scared all of the time.
I'm scared of my cancer.
I'm scared the proceedure didn't work.
I'm scared I will never have children.
I'm scared to never be a mom.
I'm scared of being alone.
I'm scared of my mind.
I'm scared of never getting my friends back.
I'm scared Justin will never get better.
I'm scared to make the wrong decision.
I'm scared my friends will.
I'm scared of going through loss.
I'm scared I'm not strong.
I'm scared of growing weak.
I'm scared of life.
I feel like I'm jumping out off a cliff into the air. The hardest part is letting go.

Justin gone

Last night I attended a party with my dear Justin where he got black out drunk. Long story short I drove him home and he got into a huge fight with his parents. The police were called and he was arrested. I don't know if he's ok or what is going on. I do know a little too late that I need to move on. There is nothing I can do to help him and nothing he can do to help me. I hate being single again and I regret nothing. But until he can pull his life together I am a single woman again!